Staying happy

I used to be completely different.

I just realized, guys, that I went from being a sad, mopey-ass waste of life to the person I am now. And the person I am now just realized that she is happy, loving life and as satisfied as the little dipshit two year old in the restaurant I work in after he chucked an entire bowl of spaghetti on the floor this morning.

What was this previous me like, you may ask? Let's look at what my life looked like a year ago.

One year ago, at this time, I tried to get everyone to like me. I would act different to every person I talked to just to get them to like me. I didn't even know who I was or what I was interested in at all, because every single freaking personality trait of mine was copy-and-pasted right off some other girl's ass. Not only that but I tried to be better than everyone else. I tried to get people to be jealous of me because I knew more people or had more friends than them. I would go downtown or to parties not because I wanted to hang out with friends, but because I wanted to be seen, to be more popular, and to get to know more people. I didn't give a shit about loving a guy, yet I wanted them all to love me.

But at some point, maybe 8 months ago, something clicked in my head. I noticed that the more random people I hung out with, the less time I could spend with friends I actually cared about. I noticed I didn't let my actual personality show. I noticed that I was telling jokes not to make people laugh, but to make people think I was funny. My first thought after this revelation was, wow. People must hate me.

My second thought was, Jesus Christ what the flying fuck am I doing with my life.

Since then I've been turning everything around. I stopped hanging out with the popular kids who I never really liked anyway. I stopped hanging out with anyone I didn't really like anyway. I started spending less time downtown, where I could get to know people and be seen, and more time with a good friend playing billiards on the seventh floor in my dad's office. I started listening to the music I like to listen to, doing things I like doing, and most importantly, I learned to enjoy every single moment of my life.

This blog is about just that. Enjoying every moment of your life. Because life is beautiful. Appreciate every moment of it. Put your own happiness first, because at the end of the day, your happiness is the only one you have control over. This blog is my bucket list and my journal of happy moments.

So lets get this party started, bitches.